Pensiveness.

 Assalamualaikum..

Hello, it's me again. Hahaha obviously it's gonna be me since this is my personal blog LOL! Just wanna write a few things about what's been happening these couple of weeks.

About the update on Mr. R the other day, well I think it is safe to say that the ship has sailed away, without any proper goodbye. I mean, I should have seen it coming, right? Because all of it was too good to be real. Most probably he was just bored at the time and I happened to cross his path. Silly me, because I should have never formed an attachment to a perfect stranger. Yeah, lesson learned indeed!

So for now, I wanna focus more on my work and improving myself. If I happen to come across a potential candidate, then I'm just gonna take it slow and steady. No more expectations on whether it's gonna work out in the end or not. No longer gonna bother myself with all that. And that's the way it should be in the first place.

I mean, being selfish for the sake of my own mental health is better than torturing myself with unnecessary dramas. I did cry a bit last night because I was pitying myself for being so gullible and naïve. But no more. I wanna start living for the sake of me.

I hope I can get through it and succeed. I can get distracted easily and look where it got me so far. Gonna learn self-restraint and start loving myself. InshaAllah the right person will come, it's only a matter of time. Until then, just gonna stay fabulous and do what works for me.

XO